Legal medication-Xanax and alcohol=ruined life

Had everything, a carrer wife tons of money. Went to psychiatrist 2 years ago for over a decade of smoking weed and drinking beer. Lost my gf of 7 years and went to psychiatrist for feeling depressed suicidal in addiction. She prescribed xanax and ssris.

First i felt like god, tons of dates new gf, took 1.5mg a day prescribed and ssris with few beers.

Year later had my first seizure at 29 with head trauma detoxing cold turkey. I increased my alcohol and xanax use gradually

Fast forward to today at 30. Shaking, permanent brain damage, wanting to kill myself with over 5 failed attempts. Yesterday got charged first DUI with fleeing the scene of accident in parking lot, hopefully noone was hurt, gonna cost me 10 and i have disability living in poverty. Feels like being tortured alive even at sleep

Ruined everything with friends and family, they all blocked me. Live in filth in middle of nowhere with being basically retarded at 30.

Want to end it, but its hard to overdose. Its over right? No other drugs just 2mg xanax and 13 beers a day for 2 years

You live in Tallinn, right?

You’re an attention seeking faggot

If you wanted to kill yourself you’d buy a gun

just 2mg xanax and 13 beers a day for 2 years

how could you not know this is extremely bad because it is
look you shouldn’t be drinking or taking benzos
sobriety is probably best but if you can’t do it just smoke weed
it isn’t over and it’s possible

I lived there when i was somewhat alive. Now in middle of woods near latvia with 200 rent not to go homeless.

I dont even have money for food because i choose alcohol, otherwise its unbearable shame and quilt, cant sleep for days. Dont even have a fridge in 14sq apartment. Any suggestions how to kill myself least painfully would be appreciated. Overdose doesnt work because im a big guy

Legal medication=ruined life

Many such cases.

taking pfizer drugs

or ANY pharma poison

in 2025

Condolences on your IQ, tardo

just detox at the hospital you mongoloid
if you try to do it yourself you will probably just end up more retarded

I cant buy it and if i could i would've done it a year ago. Im on disability 700 euro, because i cant work and noone would hire me anyways

I say old chap, is that jizzum?

i just bought an ounce of this for only $75 dollars. i could almost cry

How do you drink so much nigga I had a jar of wine and a joint yesterday and I was basically toast

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Give this a try.

You should start bodybuilding and using anabolic steroids instead. Talk to the bouncer at the underground sex dungeon strip club in The Old City (I don't remember the name) but you'll know him when you see him.

had a gf and happiness

i hope you die horribly and burn in hell

Go to benzobuddies and start tapering down. It will suck but you could be fine in a couple of years.

Are you stupid? You're feeling this way due to the Xanax and the alcohol. You need to stop the alcohol, and taper the Xanax. There's no way of knowing that you have "permanent brain damage" without first quitting. And depression is a whole different thing, not aided by these drugs. Go to a psychiatrist to get you started on an SNRI after you quit the alcohol, it will help with getting rid of the Xanax.

Xanax makes me drink more. I could be drinking until my body shuts down in the streets, happened 5 times.
Tried this and it wasnt helpful

its the xanax bro
you should never take ssri's unless you need to(most people don't)
they make you depressed if you aren't depressed lol
same with tricyclic anti-depressants
I have been through them all for off-label use (long term pain relief) and none of them are worth the side effects

Looks like mids here

Im on 2 snri after many rehabs. Doesnt help abit

Stop popping xanax and start popping Dbol.

there is no easy answer here
the Xanax has to go and it will take at least 2 months just to get the worst of it out the way

AFAIK there are some specific drugs for alcohol addiction, you can chatGPT it. Let's be honest, you probably love being drunk. Try some state-sanctioned (group?) psychotherapy if you're even remotely interested in living.

nigger, it's $10 an eighth for FIRE

One of them will make you sick if you start drinking
An instant hangover
It’s worth being on if you’re completely fucking retarded

Don’t despair. If you have hope, you will have faith, something to keep you going. Do you have any hobbies or passions?

Don't care about your sob story you dumb nigger. Boo fucking hoo faggot go cry me a river.

I guess this a new thing in your state? It looks good but I wouldn’t be bragging about it

Tbh i'd rather be dead. I asked medically assisted suicide, but doctor denied.

My brain is damaged beyond belief, seizures with micro insults, shaking cant even drink out of a cup, insane addiction with anxiety, neuropathy with asphixia. Just need good ways to suicide without causin serious harm to normal people

hurr durr it's legal

You have only yourself to blame. Even as a junkie fucking your shit up at 30 is a massive case of skill issue.

xanax snd zoloft isn’t the same thing
xannies are benzos, you complete retard

well, next I'm getting $20 an eighth Jack Herer just to shut you the fuck up

No, nothing is interesting for me in this thick fog
I love it, because it helps me sleep and feel atleast 30% normal. Tried it, didnt help

you want advice?
you’re a weak faggot

you cut out one thing at a time
buy weed
keep busy with something, or fill up a backpack with water and oatmeal and get lost in the woods for weeks this summer

stop drinking, you absolute retard

Well, I believe you. Try to seperate the symptom from yourself. If you could see all this pain as being something external, then you might want to get rid of it. It seems that you had made addiction too much of a part of your personality, even before things got this bad. But fixing this is not the priority, there are no magical mindset shifts. The priority would be to put down the bottle and at least get some normal sleep and walks in the park. Even if you're isolated af, at least see whatever assistance is in your area.

you gotta fix ur shit asap
do not fucking mix benzos and alcohol you moron
as someone who has experienced similar shit, I'm sorry but you have to ask God for help because that's probably the only way
stop being selfish and self centered, obviously you're an asshole if all your friends cut you out, fix that shit first; just be a decent person
but you need to ween yourself off either alcohol or the benzos because that shit will fuck you up

You could start a YouTube/ Bitchute/ AltCensored/ Odyssey/ etc. channel and/ or do IRL activism and redpill the masses. If you are deemed a threat by the elites, you could be martyred - a noble death.

A gun is cheaper than 700 euros
You just want to live and cry about it
Waaah no one wants to hire a drugged out retard waaah

Either stfu and stop crying, get your life together
Or end it

No one will cry for someone that refuses to do good on himself
You should spend your time posting anti jew propaganda, convincing as many people as possible

Everybody has a purpose
Or not
If not kys

Did you stop the SSRIs? SSRIs can cause seizures as well

Theres no guns in estonia.. and i tried january when i was on the woods in a swamp. Police with national forces saved my bum ass. Was in hospital for weeks with hypothermia.
Fuck would buy i gun fot 7k if it was available

had HECKIN depreshun

do I check myself and so something about it or

go to psykikeatrist to get kike drugs?

Guess I expect much from someone who can't put the bottle down

Tallest bridge
You will die

Either find a purpose or die
You can lie to everyone here but not me bud

No. It was caused by xanax and alcohol withdraw

Get off those fucking pills, theyre arguably even worse than benzos. They can also cause seizures and suicidal ideation. Get off them slowly or your symptoms will get worse. You said you are on no other drugs but you are, you ate on 2 sntis. Never trust doctors especially nit psychiatrists

Tallest building in estonia is like 20m and i would risk hurting someone or being a vegetable

Tank of helium or a noble gas you can buy on amazon, a tube and bag with a belt

You don’t choke and you pass out and just die
100% painless

Now give me your cope faggot
Either find a purpose or lie about how you can’t find a helium tank

He's too depressed to suicide, luckily for him

You have my condolences bro, benzos are absolutely among the worst (if not the worst) things that you can be addicted to precisely because coming off them can actually be more risky than staying on them and the come off period is so long.
Try to forgive those that lash out at this, I think it's them despising a weakness they see in themselves or they're jaded to seeing too many people seeking attention for sympathy on social media or something.

Im in eastern eastern shithole next to russis, amazon deliveries are checked. And i dont have money. I thought wait for hypothermia in woods with shitton of canax and alcohol is probably least painful way to go, i have no acess to painkillers so slitting wrists gonna be painful and uncompfratble as fk

I took Klonopin like candy for nearly 11 years. Never drank on it because I fucking knew better. I'm not trying to bust your balls here but what in the conscious fuck did you believe was going to happen by drinking on Xans? Did you believe that you were going to reach euphoria or something, OP? No, it will kill you.

I mistakenly gave a girl some Ativan and some Smirnoff and she nearly died. Damn near died. I still feel fucking bad about this even though she took it on her own. I had to watch as the ambulance took her away. Why the fuck would you jeopardize your health like that, man? Come on.

It seems as though you want that though.

Xans are benzos, you Muslim cocksucker.

There's literally no reason to do any of that. Just choose the pain of withdrawals, as a thought experiment. Lighten up your diet, keep some electrolytes around, lots of water, don't drink another beer and cut down the SSRI/SNRI dosage. Keep the Xannies only for when you can't take it anymore, to go to sleep. From one schizo to another, it's doable.

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You can buy or rent any tank
There are many stores in Latvia, many deliver
Most are under 100 euros and rental is even cheaper

Next cope
Or go and be a soldier posting about the jews
Someone needs to do social grunt work
Find a purpose or kys

kek i know, fucking shit makes me so mad

the worst thing about you is how dull you are.

Stop taking snri and ssri you fucking idiot, those pills cause suicidal thoughts even in completely healthy people

Cause he's a fucking Estonian retard lmao

turn to crime bro you have nothing left to lose

You don't love it because it helps you sleep, you love it precisely because it hurts you so you can play the victim and get sympathy.
It's this narcissistic grift that pushed your gf and happiness away.
You'll never heal until you take a look in the mirror and face your personality and the choices that made you this way.
If you kill yourself, you'll be stuck in the same loop in your next life, hurting more people. Maybe you love that too.

Lol thanks bro. It's not that bad but life without the meds would be interesting

Yea I'm an XR nigger. I need 6 months in a cabin in the woods with a hot nurse to help ween me off

drinking beer

ssris with few beers

I increased my alcohol

13 beers a day for 2 years

Do you notice a pattern?

The 2mg xanax is hardly a problem because of body tolerance. The xanax is just an excuse you use to increase your drinking. You know deep inside you've been an alcoholic way before the xanax and your GF left you for good reasons.

This should be your wake-up call. Take responsibility of your life. Go to a proper rehab center and don't detox cold turkey at home like a fucking retard.

Report back to us in 2 months to receive something greater than sympathy, our respect.

Have fun with it

Tjays the mistake. Never quit cold turkey. There is a 5% chance of death.
Goig to ER doesn't help because they won't give you alcohol. The only solution for long term hard drinking is to taper off using alcohol properly.

Soon as someone takes psych meds, they are subhuman. Psych meds only destroy a person's emotional state and makes them suicidal.

Everyone has given great advice except for the losers trying to get you to kill yourself
I know that if you gain sobriety the thoughts of offing yourself and the attempts will haunt you for being so foolish
It’s possible to come back from this situation and ditching the bottle is how

t. Ledditor faggot who has not spent 20 years on this site

Muh you have so much to live for

You’re out of your depth
You only know how to make things worse because you’re a useless faggot who’s never dealt with anything of the sort
Online or offline
You’re not even smart enough to know that people aren’t actually trying to get him to kill himself
Somehow dumber than a drug addicted ssri/alcohol mixing man child

But I say this to you specifically and genuinely
Kill yourself

Psychedelics are the only drug worth it.
A good DMT trip with 4d aliens and demons will completely stop depression and social anxiety.
With no addiction, no withdrawal, no physical effects.

never detox cold turkey on benzo's.
Always lower dosage every X days / weeks until you are on a minimal dosage then quit.

also never mix benzo's and alcohol.
or any downer + downer for that matter.