I had a father and a grandafather (so, two male figures in my life). My parents didn't beat me. They didn't yell at me. Dad only spanked me once, and he didn't use a belt or a ruler, just his hand. I wasn't molested by strangers. I wasn't bullied at school. I didn't watch gay propaganda. My elder sister was a fujoshi, but I always found yaoi fanfiction — and gays in general — off-putting.
Explain then, how the fuck did I end up being a homo and a bottom?
And explain this: how the fuck do I find a sadistic top bf, in 2025, in Russia? I want a real man to use my body for his pleasure, without any thought about what I feel, want, or think (but it would be nice to cuddle after that).