I would settle on the sexual history if I got enough of what I wanted
For a long time, I felt the same way. Bad enough that women are whores and fuck a million guys before they're ready to "settle down" and end their "hoe phase." No, on top of that, we have to put up with:
them getting bored and divorcing you, taking half your shit
dead bedroom, no sex once she has a kid, assuming the kid is even yours and not someone else's bastard from before you met
child support and alimony payments keeping you a slave for life once she leaves you to start fucking her personal trainer
a lifetime of chores and responsibilities even if you don't get divorced
If men didn't get lonely and need sex, what would be the point of getting married, or keeping a woman around? There would be none at all. I think of myself as a monk who has the ability to get laid, sometimes. "Focus on your hobbies" is a meme, but mine allow me to meet A LOT of women organically, so loneliness isn't an issue for me.
You fucked a granny
Yep, and I had a blast doing it. She was really fucking hot and didn't look a day past 30 in the dim light of the bar where I met her. Wears sunscreen every day, that's her secret. The last two women I fucked were both in college... not sure the point you're trying to make here.
You're not alone, my mindset is exactly the same as yours. Don't let them gaslight you into a life that will make you unhappy. It's like crabs in the bucket, they can't understand a life that's better than theirs, so they want you to be as miserable as they are.