I feel so alone. Everyone treats me like I'm repellant. Nobody ever speaks to me with joy or enthusiasm. Just another obstacle in their path. Why can't I have what others have? Their faces light up with joy when they see others and when I try talking to people, their faces wilt and die. The worst part isn't even racism. It's their apathy towards me. I'm not even worth considering. I'm just like an inanimate object to be swept away.
And it's fucking breaking me on the inside. I'm a human too, with deep complex emotions and pain but nobody treats me like that. Especially with the recent wave of discrimination against South Asians. I feel so inadequate compared to others.
Lol just go back to India
I was born here in the west. India is a foreign and dangerous place to me. I detest those who are there. I detest the Indian government. They have no respect for nature or anything. I am trapped between worlds. Stuck and alone. What should I do pol. Please.