be me 18
get my first job and it pays 15 dollars an hour
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can’t wait to move out in a couple of months
work the full week get my check and find out the government took almost half of it and I’m left with 500 dollars which means I make 2000 dollars a month which means I can’t afford a fucking apartment not even the cheapest ones
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consider saving for a car maybe
look at car prices and it’s about 20000 for a used car 70000 miles average which means I’ll have to work ten months straight assuming I don’t spend money for a shitty used car
get depressed over not being able to afford anything
talk to parents about it and they call me lazy and how being an adult is about doing things you don’t want to do and how hard it was for them when they were my age and that I need to grow up and just accept life will suck forever and I’ll never get to leave home basically their “advice” was to just accept working for nothing
get even more depressed and realize I’m about six months into adulthood and I got 50 more years to go
two years pass
hopeless at this point and honestly couldn’t care less if I live or die my girlfriend broke up with me and started dating an older guy 50s old when reality hit and all my friends drafted away
a coworker offers me fentanyl tell him no because I watched the twitter videos then he offers it to someone else who takes it
guy tells me it’s best feeling ever like being free from your miserable body and life for a while
the guy buy a life time supply from him for about 100 dollars
haven’t seen him in a month and found out he ODed
think he’s lucky because it’s all over for him
Is this why there are so many addicts? Just nothing to live for and how hopeless and miserable everything is?