Go outside

go outside
make friends
have fun
experience life

I hate everyone.

Only after we are finished.

Busy being racist on the internet

im too busy exposing daaa jooooz

I did that in my 20s
It was ok. I’m doing a lot better now in my 30s and manage to shit post

I hate it

people are shit
why do you think anyone comes here and calls each other nigger faggots?

What part of "young people are experiencing mass social breakdown" do you not understand

debunked

2020 opened my eyes to just how retarded most people are. why would i want to be their "friend"

Every emotion you feel is fake.
Every thought you have is fake.
It's all from the devil.

experience life

shit sucks its just femoid slop

Also:

Just choose to be rich.

How

go outside

OP is right you all responded because deep down you know it’s true

ayooo

Friends with who?
Boomers: Here's the one casino trick they don't want you to know
Millenials: No i'm a real woman
Zoomers: Retarded memes
Normiefags: Pizza politics & gossip

I'd rather be a shut in and coom all day than subject myself to deliberate interpersonal brain rot

Why do you think I’m here you fucking faggot?

But what if i am an introvert and can maybe only muster about 2 hours of this before feeling entirely tapped out, even if it's all good times
Why must we insist that everyone must 3/4ths of their waking life around other people and not accept that some people are just in their element when alone with the things they need
I get it, shit times ect internet slop, not what i am on about though, solitude is what I am looking for

I don't have friends. The longer someone is around me, the more they realize there is something "off" about me. I can make a great first impression and socialize, but it's mostly me lying about my life and faking things in such a way that will make a good impression with the person I'm talking to.

I make acquaintance with a lot of people, and people would say I'm outgoing and sociable, but in reality, the whole charade just feels exhausting and makes me anxious. It's like I have to pretend to be a human.

I get a job at every interview I take, but I only last a year max at jobs because I can't keep the persona up. Around the 6 month mark, people realize I'm not quite right, things deteriorate and I'm tossed out and restart somewhere else.

The past few years, I've done everything to avoid human interaction. I start in and work later than my coworkers, pretending to have a morning job, but it's really just to avoid them. I eat at later times, I go to the gym in the middle of the night, I buy everything online.

I haven't held a deep conversation with someone in over a decade now, have no friends, have never had a relationship with a woman (I'm 30) and don't even feel close to my mom and dad. I went on one date and lied about myself the whole time to a point where I didn't even feel it was me on the date and I just stopped even trying.

I sort of feel like I'm not even a real person, just a husk of a person that's sort of drifting through a bad dream. Nothing feels real. Other people's presence and events around me don't seem to register fully to me. I'm stuck in a bad feeling of derealization and depersonalization whenever I'm in a social situation and my fake smiling and pretending to feel emotion in front of others wears on me.

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. It's been like this since I was 16 and I keep thinking things will get better but every day is the same.

I'm too autistic to maintain friendships with regular people

Sounds like aspergers. Subtly feeling off in a way you can't fully describe is often a neurological thing. Not always though

Do you crave human interaction at the end of the day and wish to be normal or just completely fed up with it?
I personally talk with a small friend group of like-minded autists, it's the only time it's remotely enjoyable for me
Normie interaction is having to play a charade all the time

I was like that until I started doing drugs. Now I'm still like that but more unhinged.

tsmt

Hello. I'm not sure how much help I can offer, as a woman without an experience of what men go through. I do have a youtube channel, and you are welcome to start befriending me there. I am a very private person, but I have ordered a vr set to use on my channel soon, God willing. Hopefully I can offer you something of value for your time. Internet friends are not the same as real life friends, considering there is not much help I can offer you if you run out of fuel on the side of the road or something... But it is a start. If that is something you are interested in, I can share my youtube. Just please promise not to troll me. I have not been sleeping well lately, so, even if it would be funny to someone, it would just confuse me right now. I apologize. God bless you and the others in this thread.

shut up and make a video game, its super easy now you just have game designer disease, systemic thinker

We're witnessing the end of boomer-millenial normoid oversocialized socialization culture with zoomers and late millenials

Reality: "Hey there little queer boy can I watch you pee in VR?"

I knew if I asked not to be trolled, that would be my first reply received. No big deal.

Yesterday afternoon I went for a walk. As I was walking along the street (it's a fairly busy street), a slender, brown skinned young woman in a string strap top entered the footpath ahead of me and walked in the same direction as me. Naturally, I observed her body as she walked. As she turned to enter a hotel, she turned her face to me with a look of that was a mixture of fear and disgust. I guess she had caught me looking at her from the corner of her eye as she turned. Not sure what I should have done in this situation as she had been walking directly in front of me so I could hardly have not looked in her direction unless I was to look in a direction other than the direction I was walking, and thereby be rendered to a state of not looking where I was going. When confronted by her accusatory look, I decided to slow my walking pace slightly and look away, so that she wouldn't feel that I was trying to catch up with her or threatening her in any way. This may have worked, as she then entered the hotel without further interaction with me. On reflection, perhaps I should have given her a reassuring smile, to show that I wasn't intending any harm by walking along the street, but a smile may have come across as sleazy or solicitous. I think in future when I go walking I will be careful to stare directly ahead and observe people only using my peripheral vision without directly looking at anyone, so that nobody will have grounds to perceive me to be inappropriately looking at them or in their direction.

I'm most comfortable in total isolation, but also feel very unfulfilled when I do isolate myself. I feel like I'm incapable of functioning like I should and I wish I could just be normal.

Aspergers often comes with emotional outbursts. Throughout the day, I just feel nothing. You know when you first wake up after a nap in the middle of the day and don't know where you are, what time it is, things feel fuzzy, etc. That underlying feeling is with me all the time.

I never feel truly happy, I never really get angry or have outbursts. Only medical condition I was ever diagnosed with was depression. Which I think was misdiagnosed or only a part of why I am the way I am.

Sometimes, I just check out of reality at work and I'm not thinking of anything and not moving any muscle for extended amounts of time. 5 years ago a boss confronted me and brought security camera footage of me seated in one position, not moving a muscle for 30 minutes and was asking if I had a medical condition. Then I overheard him telling another co-manager I was "creepy". And so that charade ended and when covid hit, it was an excuse to lay me off immediately.

Meanwhile the customers loved me and thought I was a great guy because they only spoke with me in 5-10 minute times. But I am always found out the more time that passes and the closer someone gets to me.

I try but I cannot contain the autism

I don't think I'd be a good friend on a personal level.

In a way, you guys are my friends. I've been on Anon Babble for over a decade and it's been the only place where I feel like I can let some semblance of myself show through.

as a woman without an experience of what men go through

you will never be a woman

Autismo
Women love being looked at

I know exactly how you feel on that bro, day to day interactions go well but once some one gets to know me it's they'll soon find something out about me that they detest
Best thing to do is to just focus on the shit you like and stop caring about what other people think you soon don't care about needing to be normal, human interaction has to stay low and don't force yourself to get emotional unless you want to give yourself mania or something

Everyone is fake as fuck and lives off memes and social media and does not have an honest free thought in their malleable minds.
Imagine ever stooping to such inferiority and placating your skills and knowledge to redundancy

camera footage of me seated in one position, not moving a muscle for 30 minutes and was asking if I had a medical condition.

Go find some lsd and take it asap. Nobody who is in touch with their soul acts like this.

DP/DR is shitty leaf-bro, you have my sympathies. I'm 45 and realized at about 35 everything I said to people at work, dating etc was all a lie, or wearing a mask and it was fucking exhausting. I just decided to try and stop lying and get hones for my own sanity. I have 2 close friends and a girlfriend and just be as honest as I can be. The honest me isn't perfect but sure less tiring than wearing the mask.

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. (John 14:27 NIV) Second reply also a canned stereotypical response. I do not mind. I am very shy, and it has taken me this long to make my first post here. Fortunately, I lurked long enough to expect a certain amount of healthy cynicism. That is OK. He was the only one I was making the offer to. I was debating whether to link my youtube outright... but I really am not looking for too many new online friends at once. It might become overwhelming. May Jesus bless you and everyone reading and posting here long life, healing, wisdom, discernment, victory, clarity, patience, courage, and prosperity, God willing. Amen.

I took LSD and it did fucking NOTHING to me

I still dont believe youre a woman. Anyway I wouldnt want to be your friend regardless. I want to find a wife and I dont expect to find her through the internet. Following women on social media only means to be distracted by women Ill never be with.

Nothing feels real

Start taking niacinamide (vitamin B3). Niacinamide has been used in the treatment of schizophrenia. You do not have schizophrenia since you show no signs of psychosis or disordered thinking, but you have symptoms in common with the schizophrenia spectrum so it would be worthwhile to try a cheap, over the counter treatment for that cluster of symptoms.

That's cool. I actually have never played a ps5 before, so it might take some time for me to set up their vr equipment for my computer. At least if I have to spend time troubleshooting, I won't have to worry about rushing. :) I am glad this site is still here, even after the long downtime and reading too many downdetector chats. Thanks for your reply. I pray you can find the right person/people locally. Unfortunately, as amazing as the internet is, one power outage makes it more complicated to communicate.

Go take more nigger or try a different psychedelic. At the end of it all you become an unhinged schizo and that's an improvement. Guaranteed you eventually become unhinged.

I have aspergers and emotional numbness has been with me for 15 years. I've always been self contained and don't display your typically advertised "traits".

The feeling you are describing sounds like emotional blunting and derealization and or depersonalization, which I also experience. Only way to put it is it feels like an empty void wherever you are, an existence that is devoid of life but your flesh keeps going.

Also relate to not moving your body for long periods of time, to me it feels like animating myself takes too much effort and sitting neutral feels more comfortable. I don't feel that "piloting" my body feels natural.

All the things you are describing sound relevant to:

Aspergers
Depersonalization/Derealization (can overlap with some of these)
Negative only schizophrenia
Schizoid
Cognitive disengagement syndrome (Not very well recognized or understood yet, though it heavily resonates with me)

Now to be clear, "disorder" this "syndrome" that is likely the preliminary categorization of neurological anomalies that are poorly understood and remain so. Also know, I'm not trying to say you have any of these but I feel a list of relevant "conditions" might be helpful in trying to navigate why you feel that way.

I felt compelled to respond from the sheer relatability of how you describe yourself, not something I see often, or ever really

Good luck friend

Where outside do I go to make friends? Sincere question. I don't drink.

Sounds good to me. Believe or disbelieve anything you want to. Youtube is my only social media, and I am only posting political content without my image and without my voice. It is not a channel about me, so i am not in the videos. I make music videos for the news. You would probably find it boring. I pray you find the right woman locally. Friendship over the internet is really difficult, and meeting people naturally through hobbies and interests is way simpler anyway.

You should start doing mushrooms or ketamine

That state comes about when I have an intense emotional stunt and can't fucking keep track of my thoughts, takes about a month to come out of followed by 6 months of pure depression

gang stalkers fucked up my friend group some years ago

At the very least, it's good to know I'm not alone in how I feel, thanks anon.

Honestly, I don't think I was born like this. I was always a bit different, but when I went on accutane ( isotretinoin ), it altered me in some way. I had cystic acne in high school, went on a maximum dose of accutane for my weight and age, fell into a depression and I've never been quite right since.

If you like nature, perhaps a local club for hiking, fishing tournament, river, beach, etc. If you like vehicles, a club for your brand. If you like technology, perhaps a ham radio club? I've always been most successful making friends at church when I move to a new place, even if everyone is much older than me. Maybe you could try marathon running? Talk to people before and after race? Or the gym? We have community dances... I'm not sure if you have those too. I hope and pray you find genuinely kind people to befriend and connect with locally. I also do not drink. Fortunately people at my churchare also against drinking. It is nice being around like minded people.

No, everyone is some type or degenerate near me. People are either religious or alcoholics.

Also, don't eat wheat for the rest of your life
pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC4809873/

Bread and Other Edible Agents of Mental Disease

in several countries, hospitalization rates for schizophrenia during World War II dropped in direct proportion to wheat shortages. In the United States, where over that same period the consumption of wheat rose rather than diminished, such rates increased instead (Dohan, 1966a,b). In South Pacific islands with a traditionally low consumption of wheat, schizophrenia rose dramatically (roughly, from 1 out of 30,000 to 1 out of 100) when Western grain products were introduced (Dohan et al., 1984).

schizophrenia during World War II

You guys are ridiculous

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