Simulated reality, died and don't know

Nah I was hanging out with two friends and my brother. My friend said his phone died and we ran back to the house for some hard liqour and he poured himself a drink

What you gather will be useful later, I promise.

I am highly suspicious of the solar eclipse in April 2024 having something to do with all of this. Probably opened a portal for bad energies/entities.

You made mistakes, you live the mistakes and continue to do so until you blame yourself and fix them.
Can't improve without acknowledging your faults.

they circumcised me at birth in the 21st century
every day I see more and more how everything is twisted except those with genuine souls who don't subscribe to the yids
everything can be traced from the doctor kike and their kike nurses who mutilated me

There's a fork in the road anon. What you said here is one of the paths. It's the wrong one. That's the message of the archons.

You deserve all of this suffering! It's because you are a bad person! ACCEPT IT! AND WORK HARDER

Nope. I'm a good person. I have things to offer, I put my best foot forward. This is a conveyor belt of suffering, and I stopped participating over 10 years ago. Strange things have happened since.....very, very, very strange things. I had a suspicion that I was born to suffer, it became more than that once I opted out of society. It's like I'm trying to escape from prison, and since covid...the gaurds have been chasing me.

I can only shrug at your refusal go fix your mistakes and the suffering they bring.
Most likely your conception of "good" is moralistic and not realistic, thus having no bearing on reality.

Honestly its worse the random npcs how replaced and terminated

The new ones are still trying to learn about their surroundings and others the system created a bunch of insecure entities people with no objective or goals or anything at all

If you walk around you’ll notice that everything is empty and still in que mode waiting for new programming or purpose

It stills like the matrix is running out if enery and is trying to preserve energy and its creating very limited resources and NPC function and programming.

Its really bad because the system is trying really hard to target you to keep you distracted and depressed and blind while they maintain the server no pleasure no nothing at all just pain and repeated tasks

moralistic

not realistic

morals have no bearing on reality

Ok NPC archon program. See this video You don't have a soul. Can you tell?

Mine ramped up to hell mode at the start of 23

If morals had a bearing on reality why are you complaining? Why do you have these things to complain about?
Because that implies you are neither morally nor realistically good.

There are no timelines.
You're just getting old and full of regret.
The ride never ends.

How odd the matrix is so corrupt my apple device misspelled everything i wrote

This timeline is dark to say the least

I remember the the moment when I chose to escape the matrix. And I knew that it would be a death.
But for me it wasn't the world that took it from me, I just gave it up. It was a part of me and I let it go.
And now i am playing a different game.

Nah dude. Shit is actually weird. For as many people that are here talking about the matrix, very few talk about the music specifically. That to me is very suspicious

The system is cutting everything to reduce energy consumption 8B people is a lot to process?

There are multiple ways out of this Construct. The easy ones are the most dangerous. There's still powerful, wild magic in the deep forests, far away from civilization.
But yes there have almost certainly been timeline manipulations. Mostly bad. But there are indications that a change of the guard has taken place recently. We might be back on a better timeline.

This is the most disturbing train of thought I've ever seen. Wow.

The hopeful future of the Aryan was robbed and given to the hoardes of subhumans to squander. The only hope is to violently take it back.

It's just a choice.
A small part of me fears I made the wrong decision, like I just fell for some trick.

But my theory is that this step is necessary. And that there is a reason for it

Try some strong dissociative if you want to experience other realities, desu.

If it disturbs you you are simply unwilling to genuinely look in the mirror and see your evil, whether defined by morals or realism.

There's a reason Nietzsche declared god to be dead, because our noticing that his "morals" (as well as any others bar realistic "morals") have no bearing on this world make the conclusion nigh-inescapable.

It's why christianity as the least illogical religion focusses on the afterlife so much.

More realistically though unrealistic morals are just an evolutionary remnant of our past as socially inclined monkeys.

Once you understand that you can start figuring out in what contexts it is useful, and in what it isn't - it's a social construct with biological roots for a reason after all.

My life had so much potential, so much hope.

You are simply a failure and your delusions is how you are coping. Face it, you're a loser and you are pathetic and your so-called potential was the equivalent of your mom (and only your mom) saying you are handsome.
Get a grip, you're delusional.

Nah the simulation is trying to distract you while they patch shit the simulation is also trying to hijack peoples progress or programming but after they do steal your progress they become void because they have no clue how to program the rest or themselves

Its an endless race but nobody goes anywhere

My diagnosis. OP was living with his parents and thy were giving him everything, but he never appreciated it, being young, thinking it was something of a given, how it must be, but for some reason he is now not getting supplied by support and he can't put two and two together, thinking it's some great conspiracy of unfair world to punish him.
He has no empathy, thinking he is the only one who gets it bad, pitying only himself, believing the world owes him some glory. World is indifferent, but the evil you project on it - it is your evil. I believe people like OP should be reported to FBI, because if he thinks people are soulless NPC and he lives in simulation, he can start killing random people, causing suffering to the innocent, while mumbling something about "much archons"

I've acknowledged the mistakes. Im just so beaten down by them and replay them in my head daily. My mind won't let me be free of them

Acknowledging is pointless without fixing or mitigating, it's not about guilt or awareness.

Stains don't go away by staring at them.

OP used to live with his parents (like literally everyone)

muh thought crimes should be reported

Damn, NPCs are getting really triggered ITT

What's more probable, a vast conspiracy of shifting timelines and lizard people, or OP is a slob delusional loser.

the world changed completely and irreversibly in 2012

zoomers just now noticing and think it was 2020 and covid

many such cases

stfu kike rat

Who said anything about lizard people? Sounds like you have schizophrenia. Literally seeing things that aren't there.

I am fixated on the permanence of the stains, knowing that the stains are there because of my actions. I wake up and see the stains are presented to me immediately asa reminder daily. My brain won't let me forget the fucking stains and I want it to stop. Im so fucming tired. This is a cry for help, not a sob story. I don't know how to fucking fix my life, and I so desperately want to. Life shouldn't be pure misery 100 percent of the time, unless I am already in hell and am simply unaware.

Who said anything about lizard people?

No one, that mention was to pre-empt the argument that if this is not a simulation, then it's lizard people, and if not lizard people it's robot aliens, and on and on.
Re-stated: What's more probable, a vast conspiracy of (blank), or OP (and you) is a slob delusional loser.

Don't follow him anon. Follow me. I follow Christ. You aren't the problem. It's natural for the chosen to hate the world, and to be rejected by the world. Two paths. One where you listen to the evil NPCs who say it's your fault, and the path where you keep going in the direction of acknowledging that something is wrong with the world (not you). That's the real blue pill VS red pill.

You are Reddit, and a leaf. Rake yourself.

Why did my fucking ID change.....WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON

There can be something wrong with the world and something wrong with me. Both can be true. Both are true. I am not well. It hurts

Why did my fucking ID change

I did that, I'm your handler.

Yeah i get that.

What do you do with real stains?

There's many options, all of them can serve as a metaphor; "It's a bug not a feature!" can be done well by recomposing the nearby parts you can control and making the stain not stand out so much, not get in the way much.
Or even show that the stain has qualities to it.

You can paint it over, after all surgery boils down to inflicting damage and hoping it heals back better. It can work if done sensibly, thought it is risky.

I am not unfamiliar with pain and suffering either, solet me share with you a Churchill quote:
"If you're going through hell, keep going."

Everyone makes mistakes, it doesn't mean there is something wrong with you. Don't give in to the illusion. Narcissists literally want you to think they are perfect. They are everywhere. Their flaw is how they treat you, and they will never acknowledge it or repent for it. Christ says THE MOST IMPORTANT THING is to treat others well, and not to judge! The narcissits who mistreat you and judge you are THE MOST WICKED PEOPLE WHO WALK THE EARTH ACCORDING TO CHRIST. You have repented of your flaws, which are not as bad as the flaws of the wicked unrepentant narcissists. You are holy, they are trash. WAKE UP

It really does feel like that.
My headcanon is I was replaced with a clone and they didn't copy all the memories. I barely remember anything from like age 6 to 22. I don't care about the things or people I used to. I no longer have motivation for really anything. Every hobby or interest I had has now been negrified or judaified. I can't even be bothered to try to enjoy all this gay modern shit.

The veil of illusions has been cast down. The manipulation and control is being revealed
You are not alone, the entire planet is waking up
Hold fast, know you are loved, and let none control you but you, and control none but yourself.
Love all things, you are not alone, there are more like us than like them. The old power structures are beginning to crumble and it is unstoppable now. It will get better, surround yourself with what is important, even if you are all alone.

No one avoids judging though, pretty sure Christ doesn't want you to lie either.
There's a real world and real mistakes, you should never be afraid to be honest about either.

And that's not solely on the judges, it's on the judged too.
Part of growing up is learning how to weigh others' judgements, of you, of everything else.

No, it is the crumbling last grasp of a bad era, it's always darkest before the dawn.

I will admit that I have basically given up completely. This last year or so has been so brutal on my brain. So many terrible decisions just compounding. Its really difficult to put into words. Its hard for me to even write to you. I've stopped going outside and stopped exercising and barely eat. Its been like this for 3 or 4 months and my body has atrophied completely. I know this sounds really fucking pathetic, and that's because it is, and a huge part of me doesn't care, but I wouldn't be seeking help if a part of me still didn't care. I havent experienced happiness in the past before, but I wonder if my bad deeds have finally caught up to me and if this is some divine punishment. That I am meant to suffer and lose for the rest of this life. Its difficult to parce through, particularly when my brain is so fixated on telling itself how fucking stupid it is almost constantly. I can tell you one thing for sure. I am certainly not living. I am staying alive for the sake of my father, but not living. Its almost like a person in a vegetative state. Almost.

surround yourself with what is important, even if you are all alone.

What is important to you?

This will blow your mind anons, seemingly unrelated, yet ever so entirely relevant. They are lying about sugar. Look up the sugar diet. The results speak for themselves. Eat 3,000 calories of fruit/jam/smoothies/sugar candy/soda (cut caffeine) then have chicken breasts with white rice for dinner. Keep fat below 20 grams. It takes awhile to adapt. Your thyroid will start healing, your insulin sensitivity will improve. Sugar is in fruit, cane sugar is a natural plant. Look at who shills carnivore

Jordan Peterson

Joe Rogan

Andrew Tate

it's a fucking meme. Ask grok on x which diet is better, carnivore or high carb low fat. You will be shocked (even though he doesn't understand that sugar is fine)

If you are fat, you could literally just drink 7up all day for a week straight, and it would make you shredded. This is like flat earth tier shit for most people, you've been brainwashed to blame sugar for everything bad in the world while shoving steaks down your gullet like it makes you more of a man or something. Carbs are cheap, it's like Tesla and his infinite energy. Meat is big agriculture. Durien Rider is right, Cole Robinson is right, Mark Bell is right. You will need to give it a fair shot, it's easy to feel weird the first couple of days then just cave to carnivore bullshit all over again. Give it a week. You will burn fat, you will have REAL energy, you will get off caffien. We live in a fucking lie. Little kids gravitate toward sugar because they know intuitively that sugar is good.

Yeah i know that state, it is depression.
Usually it has some real but hard to identify health issue underlying it; syphilis was once considered a mental health issue too.

Some medicines may help if it's a specific kind of depression, but i have no good experience with those.

What i can recommend though is to go to a botanical garden and follow your nose.
Look for plants whose smell makes you want to eat them, even if only ever so faintly.

Do not eat them immediately; look up whether they are poisonous first (and also do not take from a garden without permission).

Things are not what people say they are, in the literal neutral sense, not a distrustful moralistic one.
So you try the plants and see what they do for you if anything, be mindful to write it down or otherwise memorise it.

We didn't sail all the way around the world and conquer it if we didn't have a proper use for it, it always was about seeking to fix the unfixable.

There is more we can talk about if you want.

No two people are alike in what diets they need, stop pretending general rules for everyone can be made.

The nose is all that can know what its body needs, the rest is speculation, opinion and politics.

underlying condition

Its probably low testosterone and brain damage from severe alcoholism, if I had to guess. If i had enough energy or cared enough to leave my house i would find out. You can tell me more please

There was a thread about Google using your Anon Babble posts to offer suggestions a couple of days ago

i died too so i think we are in some purgatory type world. i was a bad person

When do you think you died? And how?

I don't know your specifics but i've never seen low T be the reason (that shit is usually the domain of grifters far as i've seen), alcoholism however is much more severe.

I was talking more about things that would be classified as manifestations of the consequences of alcoholism as well as further secondary and tertiary effects; a swollen liver can alter your movement in example, disrupting your motorical capacities and thus making movement cost more mental energy.

Also the brain is adaptable, damage unless severe can simply be incorporated.

No what helped me is to find things i could bring myself to care about, to not seek to find meaning but to create it myself.
Agency seems to be the antidote.

Repent and let Jesus into your heart. It's the only way to escape this hell.

i was in a car crash with my friends and we slide into a telephone pole at 85+ mph. the telephone pole hit directly where i was sitting. all i remember is we hit the pole then i looked at my friend, he was driving i was in passenger seat, and we were both freaking out and i climbed over the console and then walked home. the cops randomly stopped me mid walk and that’s where it’s weird. i don’t actually remember walking that far but the cops picked me up outside my house and i was all bloody. when we went back to the car the next day the car was so fucked up. like the entire car was crushed in where i was sitting to the console. so there’s no possibly way my memory of sitting there and climbing out is real since there wasn’t even enough room to sit there. that was in 2008 so idk. i’ve had other times i could have died.

I’m feeling the same thing. Timelines or an otherwise alternate reality. It’s just certain things, some important ones.

Jeetware is a plague

I have been sober for 11 months now, but almost died twice from my alcoholism. The amount I drank undeniably did brain damage but I wasn't expecting to live. But im alive and am dealing with the consequences now.
Same. Multiple times. I too am a bad person. Is this our punishment? This dull purgatory of misery?

This post is so full of shit it mogs the Ganges river

Yeah guys like this weird me out and im extremely weird

i think it could be. or we died in a way where we don’t 100% know for sure it happened and reality is based on expectations so because we didn’t expect to die we kept on living. only killing yourself dying in a obvious way like being executed might work idk. everyone just makes shit up too. people like us assume if we think something is true then it is so we have a common retardation about us that let’s us be tricked. no offense to all my fellow players but there’s prob a reason we are in a simulation. i think we are being studied by aliens

Same

Born in 94'

When I was born my family owned a castle in scotland, now the whole family is in poverty and I'm homeless.

Downhill since the day I was born!

Idk man. Im just tired of it, whatever it is. Im so fucking tired of it.

i’ve always felt like if i learn a certain truth then i’ll escape so i’ve always been reading conspiracies and shit. been 20 years of this and nothing lol. i feel like i’ve actively been trying my whole life to figure it out

omething is off. Either we were transported into another timeline, or this is a simulation

We can't know if we're in a simulation as long as we're inside it, but I can tell you that some people want people who think independently and creatively to *think* they're in a simulation so they don't care what happens in this reality. So like, care.

Big tits, milkies in the tummy, and race war.

Well at the very least im sure you are interesting to talk to irl. I havent talked to another person irl in a long time. I always hurt people. I have no motivation to do anything. The only real actual feeling I have besides this overwhelming depression is the deepest hatred possible for my brother. Beyond that, I just want this to be over.

if i didn’t care what happens then i’d be in prison

damn i’m like the same way too. what happened with your brother

Or dead, and that's what I mean. Some people want you in prison or dead.

no i’m saying i haven’t decided to act like i can do whatever i want despite thinking the world is fake. it makes no sense i guess. but i think what happens here does matter somehow. how impossible would it be for this to be a simulation and we are here completely by accident lol. impossible bud. someone put us here

He's a violent alcoholic that has the emotional temperament and scorn of a woman, and because he is my brother, he knows exactly how to hurt me. I never want to see him again in my life. How about you?

pepsicola..... advil.... vegetable broth.... kratom getsuperleaf dot com...... shadow the hedgehog...... MIT center for quantum computung...... backstreet boys..... dengue fever.... these are the ingredients for the perfect little girls

This is the only way. A total coup against the current controllers of the power structure.

Not lifting a finger until women give up their right to vote. Women can suffer the consequences of their voting habits until then.

The Universe verifies.

Agreed.

This world is built to shun any form of maverick thinking or behaviour. So ironically those that are potentially great are beaten down by all these Agent Smiths. You must get away from these types, be ok living in isolation whilst working on your secret weapon.

You're onto something fellas

I've felt it accelerate since the x eclipse last year

The simulation is talking to me now

You're just getting shilled, pipe down neo.

I died multiple times already

We are being studied by Aliens. We live in a simulation and the aliens don’t have a sense of humor. They study everything even trying to hijack yourself your purpose objective and so on to try to manipulate the universe itself

Its really weird but they don’t know where to go or what to do. How do we feel any sort of pleasure in this system or simulation? How do we trick the algorithm in our favor? Or get the system to spend my energy on having orgies with blonde chicks and money? As well as drugs and so on?
Leap of faith? Or taking chances?