Everyday I wake up and wonder why I haven't committed suicide yet

You forgot to tell the retard to put the bag over his head first. Don't underestimate how stupid these "people" are.

all skill issues

I went outside for 2 weeks and got all that shit. Now I miss being a NEET.

add

too afraid to apply for gibs

to the list.

Stop waging, stop drinking, sell plasma, do marathons.

Ahh man, it's the best.
Just chilling all day, no worries, no one telling ya what to do. Bliss really.

almost cut my self on your edge

fuck you *weeps*

just fuck you ok

just be confident bro

I genuinely do not care about any of you.

if you can tell elon musk to suck a dick you can ask a girl on a date you boring nigger

get a non-felony DUI. If that doesn't work given what needs to be done after a plea deal, you are part of the hopeless.

Jus fit ready 4 ww3 muh lil nigglet

just be around shitskins, that will cheer you up!

Maybe...if you have a vagina and aren't fat. Just maybe.

WWIV
My fellow history nerds know.

So why haven't you?

Why didn't that work for you?

Who cares? All these are achievement traps. You are here not to be a crab in a bucket. Individual life and wealth are overrated and pushed on you by that same globohomo you hate. You are here to fight the holy meme war against ontological evil.

Don’t despair Trump will pay you to post, as long as it’s nice things and not things you should never have said

You can always end it all

I liberally asked out a tig biddy goth girl today, gave her my number and hand drawn art.

Well the problem is like doesnt support idealists. You may or may not be here for any higher purpose, but 99% of people need to get up early, shower and wear clean clothes, and try to make a living

turns out you can just walk up to women and talk to them, who fucking knew.

I'm a loser as you are too.

This pisses me the fuck off. No you can’t just walk up to women and talk to them because they will reject you right off the bat 99% of the time if they don’t find you attractive

Warning, these are easy to do wrong and a lot of tanks have oxygen in them now to stop people from doing this. You'll just end up with brain damage.
Just jump instead.

A BLOOO BLOOO BLOOOO IM…SAD!

My man, you just gotta be happy. Get some sun, lift some weight/exercise, learn to cook some fresh food and eat it. I used to be like you. Still have no friends, had back surgery at 28, pain never went away. Stopping the alcohol was the hardest part of it all for me. If you can conquer the liquid jew, you can overcome the other stuff. Stay strong fren.

Brother, I feel ya I am crippilingly autistic, almost all the same as everything you listed, possibly flunking out of uni and shipwrecked in my bedroom, questioning even the purpose of free will. Try to reach a healthy equilibrium like go watch something fun online or vidya (better than drinking), maybe do some mild exercise/cardio to make your back hurt less. Think about any better times you had and count your blessings. Warm food, warm clothing, warm shelter. Better than nothing, man. It could be worse. You could be in the pen for a hate crime or beaten til disabled or dead. But you're not. I like reading Psalms, Psalm 53 onwards especially comforts me; to think God cares for all of us. That's what I'd do. Then take it from there. Whenever you hit rock bottom, it's an opportunity to get a sense of clarity and see some things will get better and get up. And things do get better.

I fully understand fren. Trying to fix it. Try to stay strong and keep praying

I'm in the same boat. I know not what I live for. Once my mother passed I'll shoot myself.

things do get better.

Not for you though

Hang in there OP. Also hang in there any Anons in the same or similar situation as OP. Things can get better for you all. Trust in God.

Race Status: Indian.

FTFY.

I was a chad between 2010 and 2015 and then social relations went completely to shit because of the internet and its use by intelligence agencies to further domesticate society. The phenomenon is worldwide, except perhaps in rural Afghan-type corners, and will only stop when human biology regains its rights. I've decided to withdraw from the world.

I'm the same. Doesn't it bother you that we are aging and no have no marketable skill? No social ability? How would we fare out in the real world?

I dunno man, morning feels better than evening and not everything in life is shit. There's a lot worse ways to fuck up your life. I've seen it, heard it; friends on coke or pep, family with gambling addiction, schizophrenics, financial problems, people killing themselves with medicine or alcohol. Not saying everything is going to be sunshine, lolipops and rainbow, but we can do a bit better by keeping our chill and doing basically anything that is not significantly harmful to our health but keeps us going.

I'm dying of ARFID. I'm wondering what I should do. I hope God comes through. He hasn't yet, and time is running out.

vices are not your friends drugs, porn etc. They temporary feel good but long term strangle the brain. Once you realize this lifes not so bad.

How do you live sober
I think about everything when I'm sober
All my mistakes and shortcomings
Everything I didn't do and can't do
How fucked everything is
And then there's mortality

I wouldn't worry about these questions because of all the bullshit that already exists in the "real world" and the bullshit ways to avoid the "real world". I will think about it if I one day have some government official telling me to do XYZ maybe, before that it's simply a non-issue. I've also seen what some social ability gets you and found I don't like it, due to my eccentricity. Not everyday is doomposting and doing nothing. Sometimes you gotta literally clown around.

alchohol does nothing for me. I do not enjoy carbonated drinks. Vices are like manifesting a evil twin entity in your mind that always has a sadistic scowl smile on their face when they get the chance to ruin you. They do not care cause they are come from a rewired brain structure made entirely from the associated dopamine. Stop being victim of self harm and realize just how dangerous it is.

Nike

I think about everything when I'm sober

All my mistakes and shortcomings

Everything I didn't do and can't do

No judgement, I empathise with that, but it's not the first or only time to hear such things. I wonder when people say these things is how normie they are or think they are. Normies live in the real world. Literally better to daydream and escape the real world for a bit instead of exposing yourself to the past. There's tons of escapist media and time to just lay in your bed and think of a world how you would create it. I know trauma is a bitch and comes uncalled and problems remain, but there is nothing forcing you to always dwell on the here and now. Go wild. I know "coping" gets ridiculed all the time online, but IRL it can be useful.

Daydreaming can be fulfilling but ultimately it's not the same as reality and it becomes toxic when it's a replacement for it. That's what I would always tell myself but I ultimately didn't follow it

Why is there no monk job opening

CSIS thread, kill yourself goof

Historically the people in this thread were the primary demographic for monk positions

but ultimately it's not the same as reality and it becomes toxic when it's a replacement for it.

Right, you got to balance things out. But what I would do is create a fantasy world where a self-insert character would do stuff and make sure to give him at least some attributes to distinguish him from my proper self. So that way the daydream does not become too self-absorbing and it can even be creative like thinking the concept for a story but without the pathological demand avoidance. And then one can go back to other things or decent habits and do them.

That's what I would always tell myself but I ultimately didn't follow it

I wouldn't worry about that all that much with regards to the previous statement because it sounds like forcefully trying to internalise something external. You set boundaries against the things you hate and focus on the things you love and like. Most important is to have an inner set of values to guide you even if you take little to no action because you're not prepared/able to. That's entirely OK seeing as modern society is trying to abstract us out as numbers and IMHO just by resisting that we're doing a bit of a job already.
Let them. Autistic people are immune to psy-ops.

Depending on how old you are, youll probably get to experience the craziest happenings of human history. AI, WWIII, Aliens. Who knows. I want to live because I am curious as to what is going to happen

Checked.
Since I'm cradle Orthodox I've looked into monasticism. I've even read Wounded by Love by St. Porphyrios but what I garner from monastic life discipline and obedience are important and (I can only speak for myself) I don't have that I'm too interested in girls and delicious food and war and just being lazy to keep it. But we can and in a way must all adapt from the monastics the ascetic mindset, to keep the fast and have a good prayer rule.

I work a lot, still live at home and also addicted to alcohol. Work sucks fucking shit

Agreed. Although I feel it should be a self supporting real job

It is. Monks all have their own handicraft they must learn to make a living. The motto is "ora et labora" not 18th century Carmellite nuns where it's all contemplation. The reason there are no job applications per se is because it's a special calling, like marriage. God will know if one's ready.

Worked with a guy whos grandpa died in Stalingrad for the Germans, wild shit, wish I had something to fight for like those guys did. Nothing here except 50% in assorted taxes, whore women and half the "citizens" being assorted brown skinned niggers and another 40% a bunch of nigger loving faggot goy cattle garbage.

I was exactly like you
You must learn to deal with those while sober
I still think of all my mistakes, worry constantly, and the world has only gotten increasingly darker the more ive learned about it. I was hospitalized for alcohol poisoning a couple times, and that really gave me a profound appreciation for the life I had almost thrown away because I was so self defeating I poisoned myself daily. Also, with enough time away from alcohol, you will find the weight of these things, although crushing, will be less than it is now. While you are in the middle of dependency, of course you'll feel like that sober

Once my mother passed I'll shoot myself.

I know this seems like a 1pbtid maybe phonepost maybe not perhaps you'd not even read this but bro if that's unironically the case then make a post if that happens and I will give you an address, we can meet, if you want to go bowling we can go bowling, if you want to go shoot up a wallmart we can go shoot up a wallmart and if you still want to kys after all you can still kys, but for the love of God don't throw your life away like it's scraps off your plate 'cause it's not. Same goes if it is a CSIS leaf with a VPN, I don't care, it's probably still a suicide-threatened pre-castration troon nigger operative being groomed. We all belong not just to ourselves but to Christ.

You can easily change most of that in a week anon

At least you have a huge dick

Worked with a guy whos grandpa died in Stalingrad for the Germans, wild shit, wish I had something to fight for like those guys did.

My great-grandpa fought in WW1 and I read his war memoires, and another grand-uncle of mine fought in WW2, I'm told. We must fathom: they fought not for what existed back then but for us who exist now and for all future generations.

Nothing here except 50% in assorted taxes, whore women and half the "citizens" being assorted brown skinned niggers and another 40% a bunch of nigger loving faggot goy cattle garbage.

Then it's the same across all NATO/EU gay nigger faggot kike puppet regimes then, your flag, mine flag, his flag. Nothing new then. I found a way to deal with that strain of khazaric bullshit in particular.
What I did, unwittingly, was make it my task to continuously radicalise myself, because that rabbit hole is never-ending and it doesn't matter how often we fall, the beatings will continue until morale improves. And then one day I will have my grandiose master plan of how to roast the kikes. And until then we can revel in this folk politics e-pub, but with a dream, 'cause I've seen enough crazy shit to know one day I will, in essence, say "Negerjudenschwanzsauger" to the highest kike in Germany and he will say "Would you like fries with that, sir?" and I'm dead certain. Dead certain that it's going to happen. Out of the millions of starts in the universe, this is the one we inhabit.

I’m sorry but if you can go more than a few hours without alcohol, then you are not addicted

Out of the millions of starts in the universe, this is the one we inhabit.

Correct, History is cyclical and it's unfortunate that I am in this kiked garbage piece of shit time in it but.... Hopefully I live to see the shylocks get the Hadrian X Hitler treatment and are done for good.

Sidenote I am dumping my stupid cunt gf on the weekend because I am tired of her shit and have been fuckin better pussy lately

Could be worse.
Could be full time employed
Just scraping by
No social life
And having my unemployed (by choice) mother living with me.

Hey wait, do not kill yoursel!!
Join now Ukranian Army and die like a hero

Not only is history cyclical but IMHO the cycles move in an upwards spiral. Hope things turn out well for you and maybe you can do the settling-down thing with a good broad. Maybe that broad is your gf, I dunno, think things through thoroughly before you do a long-term choice that impacts your life. Gif is lewd (and Lebanese) but I'm not gay (or Israeli), so ogey I guess. God bless.

marketable skill

Why the fuck would any human want that? Are you trying to sell yourself to someone? Rich people don't do that.

Life is fucking bullshit. Nothing but hellshit with NPCs, kikes, jeets, boomers and fags.
"Life" they call it. Yeah right. None of this resembles life in the slightest.

Is he OK?

If you don't want to live with your mom, why not just buy a house? Renting is for temporary populations like when you're a student doing an exchange year or something. You're not supposed to still be in renting like a retard by your mid 20s.

This proves that celebs lie about their earnings and spending to generate interest and give themselves a vibe of wealthy and desirable lifestyles

It also makes it easier for Jews to steal from them.

If you wanna kill yourself do it properly
The food and care in this nation in the mental ward was a sobering reminder to never ever attempt killing myself ever again it was that horrid
Lowkey redpilled

Do it for another 40 years, then come cry about it here.

If you wanna kill yourself do it properly

Or don't do it at all. Motivation means thinking often about something. Killing yourself requires an immense amount of motivation. If every time a white man failed by the system tried an hero, we got a soldier for the cause instead, we'd have stormed every f*cking institution in this Judaic dystopia already. As Hitler said, nobody speaks about the thousands who asphyxiate themselves. Maybe put your motivation elsewhere.

Shut up and put on your bigboy pants.

Exercises and eating healthy can do wonders for your mental health.
I have pretty demanding job but I love it.
Some Britanon made a post about turning 35 and suddenly life became somehow manageable.
For me, I was 36 when my life turned around.
Now I’m looking into buying a house.

You need read your Bible.

Are you Indian?

Killing yourself requires an immense amount of motivation

Completely disagree its a fleeting emotional reaction because no saftey nets exist for maladjusted or mentally colorer white or asiatic males exists
110% a beyond conscious choice

It's funny how ancestors lived through the most challenging and difficult times, yet the modern man falls apart amid all physical comforts, all because the greater societal narrative eventually ceased to hold any higher purpose for itself and the individual, or any possibility of a better world. Just goes to show all the physical comforts and nourishments aren't worth shit when there's nothing to feed the spirit, or when hope in the future is completely lost or dim.

Fuck this entire gay cursed planet.

I’m just in it for the lulz and neat stuff. I liked the other on here who said “sometimes you just gotta clown around”. Fix up OP. There’s shit to do.

Buy a van and start touring the US leafbro. You got nothing to lose at this point, you might as well see the world.
Check out cheaprvliving on jewtube. Bob Wells can show you the way to a cheap, comfy, carefree life.

still thinks women have to love you

lmao

The same goes for you.

rape something before you kill yourself

It is conscious, it is an emotional reaction, but one that you have to act on, and the acting on requires a whole deal of thinking and "bad days" and organising to get to the end point. Not blaming or denying that there's a lack of good safety nets to fall back to. Just let'sn't confuse the monstrous misjudgement of life, that suicide is, with emotions, since life is more than its pitfalls and the valley of tears, even when that's all one is experiencing in a particular moment. It is not forever.

I can go many hours without wanting a drink. Because I'm passed out shaking, vomiting and sweating unconscious.

When I wake up shaking, vomiting and sweating, I start drinking heavily again. I am an addict.

Nine days sober. I prayed to God on my knees. I suddenly felt a buzz like a drug and was giddy. No pain. Wish me that I keep praying, otherwise I'll be dead very soon and I am sure.

t. isolated lonely autist man

Ty kraut anon ive tried to off myself twice and your post resonates and means alot to me

It's funny how ancestors lived through the most challenging and difficult times, yet the modern man falls apart amid all physical comforts

St. Paisios said the greatest Christian saints would like to live in our times, with marvel and jealousy, because in their times they wrestled with the Jews or the pagans or the Muslims or the Bolsheviks, but we in our times wrestle with the devil directly. The world is not purely physical or material, you're right. The biggest deception of the devil was to trick people into thinking he doesn't exist. He has 7,500 years of experience in deceiving humanity, the Jews got it all from him. But as long as we don't stop caring about each other and God, there's love in us and life. Christ already won and struggles with us and in us and behind us as he brings us into his kingdom.

And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.

But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.

Matthew 24:12-13

Hey, great to hear man. You know, it's like when it's candle-mass and a candle goes out, you just go to the feller standing next to ya with a lit candle and rekindle your own.

thanks for the attempted demoralization. you guys emptied that bucket awhile ago. now, you are just building something.

7th meme army, 88th counter-psyop battalion. We are remoralising the glowniggers with blonde twintail lolis til they turn into albinoglowniggers ;3

Im screencapping your post because it hit deep
Heil germans

30

virgin, never had gf

just went bald

live with mom but have decent amount of money saved

I want to move somewhere and never come back, too bad if I do, I'd have to find another decent paying job and rent that won't rape me. It's hard to stay motivated anons, it feels like I'm playing a game with no objective or end goal in mind.

The only thing I have going for me is I'm lifting and getting stronger but still look like an auschwitz survivor.

zero friends,

lies. you have us

why I haven't committed suicide yet.

Its really easy. Just tape a plastic bag over your head and wait for 15 minutes.

Everything you just said is a positive. I would do unspeakable things to trade places with you.

your life doesnt sound bad at all

take a few with you on the way out

Good to hear, anon. Glad you found faith.